| well i been feelin bad latley. cuzz i wasnt seyin da things i shuda sed n i was seyin da wrong things 2 liz. im srry liz. u know i never mean it. but im glad we got things werked out now. c liz u jess gotta trust me. u can talk 2 mee. giv mee a chance. im glad u did. c didn i make u happy?? well we jess needa hab better communication. i wunt dis relation 2 last. we jess gotta talk about wuts important. en not fight about da stupid shit. we gotta not blame it on ourselves n werk 2geder on solvin things. im srry fer all da crap i put u throo b4. i jess wunt u 2 know i cant wait till i come ome frum iowa so i can c yo pretty face agen. i miss u so much. en im srry. i hope we can werk things out next tyme |
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| hmm life's getting harder.....i went shopping yesterday with my mommie got sum clothes but im not done w/ my shopping =D and then yeah stayed up til like 2 talking to ryan i dont think i was a great help to his problems...maybe im not the one who can help him =\ i want to be but i just dont know...feels like his friend can help him more since im not really an understanding person i guess -sigh- this is just so hard blah......i feel like im the problem i messed up his life and everything he says i didnt/dont but i dont know i just feel like it maybe i should just get away from him for a while and let him fix it =\ i dont know blahhhhhhhhh SOMEONE HELP ME ='( |
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| well eyah ish me agen bloggen frum iowa. uhmm soo far 2day sukked. uhmm me mad step dad n mah step uncle n 2 ov mah step cusinz went on a lil boat down a river. half way down da river. OUR BOAT FUKKIN SUNK!! i was lyk wtf. i got all wet. n shit n we had 2 pull da fukkin boat outta da river up da woods en out on 2 da road. dat was fukken gey as heyl. en later onn i supposed 2 go 2 da woods agen. iono 2day seems gey. well n e wai. beb, i miss u sooooooo much. i wunna come home 2 u. i wunna feel yo hug n taste yo kiss.  . im srry fer gettin mad en shit sumtimes. but u know i onlee mean 2 make things better. well thass all fer now. i'll blogg later onn. latez |
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| well im in fawkin i o w a. iowa = idiots out walkin about.... haha well n e wai. i habnt bloged in a while so i'll start dis by mah trip on da way over here..
saturday: 3.00 am woke up. had 2 get redy n all. put all luggage in da truk. went 2 am pm 2 get ice fer da cooler. then we wer on our way 2 iowa... i was sleepin most ov da way. but when i woke up. me n mah dad wer in uhhh flagstaff arizona. fawk i was heylla bored, well mah dad got tired ov drivin so we stopped @ dis place in santa rosa new mexico 2 spend da night @ a motel 6.
sunday: 3.00 am woke up agen. early as heyl. but eyah frum then i slept throo 3 states we drove throo. new mexico, texas n oklahoma. so when i woke up we wer almost @ kansass. i was lewkin fer a welcum 2 kansass sign 2 take a picture ov it fer liz. but i didnt c wun. so eyah. srry i kudnt take it beb. it was a long ass time 2 get throo kansass n missouri. but then when we got 2 iowa. mah dad started drivin all fast lyk 95 mph. cuzz he wunted 2 get 2 webster city fast. so then when me n mah dad got here in dis borin ass city. mah step auntie n uncle n gramz n grampz wer here. cuzz wer stayin @ mah step gandrents house. so then eyah uhmmm i went 2 sleep.
monday: 10.00 am when i woke up there was a fire in da drive way. i was lyk WTF!!. but then it was mah dad n his dad tryna fix sumthin but it blew up. i was laffin. but eyah then we had 2 go run arrondz fer mah dad's dad. then we went bak 2 dis borin house. i was jess fixin da computer dat im on rii now. cuzz eyah its slo n shizz. so i made it go faster. haha. then after dat i had 2 go wash mah dad's trukk. it was heylla dirrty. soo eyah dat was gey. after dat me n mah dad went 2 his brodas house. i got fawkin bit by alotta misqitozz. i got alotta big ass bumps on mah arms. im lyk wtf is dis shizz. so when we got bak 2 dis house. i took a shower n put sum cream on dat shizz. now its startin 2 come off. soo eyah. well after i did dat i went online n dass wer i am now..
liz i miss yoo so much. i wish i was in yo arms 2night ((corny)) but eyah ferrillz tho. i wish i was bak home so i kud c u. i wunna c yo smilin face i wunna smell yo beutiful smell. i wunna feel dat warm hug n kiss. i wunna hear yo sweet voice. i miss u soo much baby. ............... i luhb yoo |
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| hehe how queerish alota stuffs been happing anyways today i went to horton plaza w/ alex i bought this lil' hawaiian hello kitty letter thingy =P and yep went back to my cousins house slept and then i went home and here i am just fixed OUR xanga (which ryan never freakin blogg's in which ima talk 2 him about that or ima just finish this xanga...sOo much hard work and he does crap i mean he doesnt even BLOGGGGGG in it wat da hell!) anyways yeah im like tired and just missin ryan kinda i guess heh anyways yeah im so stressed out right now and dude people why dont they get that THIS IS JUST NOT MY XANGA IT's RYAN's TOOOOO goodness im done |
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